I cut myself for the first time:(

a few days ago I wasn't having it. Literally bawling my eyes out like a baby over the dumbest shit ever. A friend wanted me over but I just couldn't do it that day, and I kept digging myself into a deeper hole.

I haven't cut myself before, I've only scratched my legs until they're raw, but this time I used scissors. I snipped a shit ton on my arm, now there's loads of little cut marks on my arm. My parents almost saw, I would've been in the deepest shit ever

I want to tell someone, but I don't know how. I'm unsure if I can be sharing this, but my friend has self harmed before (we've all supported and attempted to help them), and I'm worried they'll believe I 'did it to be like them'. I'm ever more hesitant to tell my girlfriend about it, because I feel as though my reason wasn't 'valid' enough, and I hate to see her worry. That's one of the main reasons why I don't tell people about anything. Im afraid they'll get worried, judge me, or see me in a new light if they hear something they don't like. I just wanted to vent, thank you.