Lost one of my closest friendships of over 5 years due to Politics
I'm still in the middle of processing things, so rn I'm just throwing my thoughts into the void to get them out of my head, and to simply share the entire story of this because it's been eating me up.
So to provide context, my former friend (whom I'll refer to as "Amy"), was in a close friend group with two other mutual friends, "Dan", and "Anna". The three of us are around early 20s, and are pretty much internet friends. Nevertheless, we've become really close over 5 years of friendship, and talked/chatted with one another on an almost daily basis.
A few months ago, Dan found out that Amy was a Trump Supporter (you probably know where shit goes from here), and had been deliberately hiding this fact not only from us two, but also the rest of our extended friend group, which included LGBTQ+ people.
After around a week of trying to grapple or process with the fact, Dan and I went on a call with her to question her about it. I want to preface that we both mutually decided to go about this as respectfully as possible, as neither of us wanted to lose this friendship. Amy joins the call, and after trying to make sure she knows it's a serious topic, I effectively rip the band-aid off and ask her straight:
"Hey, we found out you voted for Trump, and we just wanted to ask you why because we kind of worried about it." (approx. what I said). Dan probes with some extra questions, like the fact Trump is a convicted felon, rapist, etc. After a minute of silence from Amy, she erupts and yells at me something like "What the fuck do you mean 'you're worried?', like that changes anything about me at all!". We go back and forth a bit to ask for her reason (that reason being a sheepish "Kamala is worse"), and she leaves after asking us if we can forget about this and that she "hopes this changes nothing about our friendship". (It didn't)
A few more weeks go by of Dan and me... not having processed this conversation well, because it was the second-worst reaction she could've given apart from announcing she's a proud bigot or something. We started talking to a few of our other mutual friends, including Amy's (also former) best friend, Anna. Pretty much all of them assured us that we weren't in the wrong for confronting Amy about it, so I'm grateful to them for supporting Dan and I.
After some time, Amy silently left the servers we had mainly hung out on, and one of the server owners (who was also a mutual friend I'll call "John"), who had been informed of the situation by Dan, plans to question / confront her about it, in an attempt to see if she'll see why we have a problem with her supporting Trump. After finding out about this from Dan, I asked John if he was OK with me being there too, since I've personally felt responsible to be there.
Said conversation between John, Amy, and I, went.. nowhere, to say the least. Amy kept dodgin each and every point we've made, but instead, told us that she deliberately hid it from all of us because (and I quote) "We were all liberal-leaning and assumed everyone was the same, which is dangerous", and that she felt threatened as a conservative because we were... liberal, and mocked *bigoted* conservatives. Which to me, simply confirmed something horrible:
Despite everything, how much we've shared with one another, how often we told each other how important we are to one another, and her having told us she considered us (Dan, Anna, and I) as siblings, she never fully trusted us with this. All we were to her, was an escapism from politics, some safespace where she doesn't have to worry about her views so she can talk about which nintendo character she thinks is cute.
Now to make it clear, seeking escapism in your best friends in itself is not bad. Sometimes you do need that break from news, politics, etc., it's one thing to generally avoid topics like that, it's another to deliberately hide this from your friend group because *you* feel threatened by people having another viewpoint, and then still act like you "never run away from a political discussion" (real thing she told us).
The conversation ended with me typing up a long reply about the fact that I'm genuinely disappointed by how much she avoids every point we make, and that she never viewed us as more than "escapism friends", something she only replied to with a "Love you two", left the group DM, and promptly blocked me.
A few more weeks go by, during which Anna was still actively talking to Amy, and while I won't share too much of what Dan and I were told about by Anna, I'll just say Amy was being genuinely really rude to her. But to sum it up, the two ended up getting into an argument over which Amy blocked Anna, left the group-chat Dan, her, Anna, and I were in with the words "I know you guys don't want to talk to me, I love you. Thanks for the memories", and posted a fucking Gif of Solid Snake saluting. Yes really.
In my, admittedly, not proudest moment I confronted her in a petty way (after discovering she unblocked me), and in my last conversation with her she once again confirmed that the three of us (Dan, Anna, and I) were "only" her escapism from politics. While she actually responded to my points, she basically kept acting like we only "think" Trump is a fascist, convict, felon, rapist, etc., and that we were all wrong about it. In a last, genuinely disgusting statement, she basically supported Trump dropping support for Ukraine because "Zelinskyy was corrupt", and I confronted her about how a president being corrupt doesn't justify his people being slaughtered by a fascist. She blocked me afterwards again.
And in one last, genuinely disgusting-nail-in-the-coffin statement we've been sent by a mutual friend of Anna, all Amy said about this was that she's "glad Anna is no longer rent-free in her head". Which just confirmed to us she never really cared about, well, us. Our friendship of over 5 years, which she dropped at the drop of a hat and not only burned the bridge, but actively poured gasoline on the fire.
I'm sorry if this is a way-too-long read that's semi-comprehensible. This entire clusterfuck has been really weighing on my mind the past few days. And no matter how much I re-assure my friends that I'm "over it", I can't help but still have this absolutely naive hope that, by some miracle, she realizes that she burned her best friendships over, well, nothing, and comes to her senses per-say. But I know she won't. I know she'll keep supporting the man, and party who keeps taking away her rights because of her gender. I know she'll keep genuinely losing her shit over "the woke mind virus initiating a culture wars in video games". I know she walked out of this entire thing, thinking like she's been in the right the entire time and that she "had to cut off her friends because they became unreasonable".
Now, I'll have to grapple with losing one of my closest friends to this. The only upside? I've grown closer to Dan and Anna throughout this, and we were able to genuinely help and support Anna throughout all this, because she was in the worst situation after this.
Edit 1:
Because a few people kept accusing us of this (which is my fault for not clarifying it off the bat); None of us planned to block, ostracize, or bully her out of the group over this, or over having another political opinion. We‘ve known she was a conservative, religious person for a long time, but she always assured us she was a "reasonable“ conservative.