I am still vaping.

I genuinely hate it. I cut back a lot don’t get wrong. I don’t even own my own vape. I had quit and then it fell through and I bought another one. But now I don’t own a vape and I munch off other people, which it is getting so embarrassing I stoped asking, only if they offered which helps a lot. I feel guilt every time I hit a vape. Every single time I feel terrible. I have a lot of people around me saying they vaped or even smoked cigarettes their entire pregnancy but I’m pretty sure all their kids were premies. So like.. they’re healthy now but they could’ve had a better start to life. My boyfriend also told me he wouldn’t be with me if I vaped while pregnant, it goes against his morals. Which I get but like idk. I want to quit don’t think anything else other than that. I go all day without hitting a vape and my worst craving time is after food or in the morning or when I’m driving and I drive A LOT for work. I care about the health of my baby, I do, I just need to find more self control with it and I am determined to quit, just struggling.

Please be kind, I already feel terrible.