I don't believe I am actually here again

So long story short I have been abstaining from porn completely and masturbation about 90% for 3 and a half years..every conversation with my friends I was spreading the dangers of porn and how it helped me... it cured me sex performance problems and made me have a long beautiful relationship..but recently because of my woman's pregnancy our sex has been reduced drastically and for the first time I started masturbating without porn but pretty often so I could release sexual tension.. then slowly I found my self watching porn scenes without masturbating for few seconds and closing it...fast Forward these 2 weeks I have relapsed two times today and two times a week ago..it's crazy that after so long it's still here...I am extremely disappointed to myself..tell Me all these years progress its not in the bin since I will become a father soon I really wanna go away of this path.. social media and shorts lead to porn since everywhere you see it's nudity