I (f26) accidentally sold my only plushie 💔

I had a pink plushie from getting the only two people in my life who would even bother to take the time to make an account for me to get it.. those two people being my mom and my boyfriend. I have no friends anymore.. I asked my “best friend” to do it so i could get the cow micropet and she wouldn’t even do it. It’s late, 4:18 am to be exact, I’m finishing cooking dinner. We’re night owls (my boyfriend works 2nd shift and has a longer commute home) since he doesn’t get home till 11pm. I was cleaning and taking care of things and started dinner late. Hes asleep. I’m so tired. I was trying to sell some other items… and then my eyelids got heavy and I shut them (while standing🥲) and well.. I clicked on my plushie and sold it (it was the right side which is where the yes button is as well). I just wanted to make sure I didn’t lose my daily check in streak…. Im genuinely so upset. Like I just feel like it shouldn’t have even been that hard to get the people around me that I love (who are supposed to love me too..) to do something nice for me and such a simple task… I am constantly reminded of just how lonely I feel sometimes. It’s been hard trying to just survive on a daily basis while trying to work with and make the best of my ADHD/CPTSD/SUD while feeling like I have no support. I have been sober from opioids for almost 3 years which has not been easy. I can’t nor do I want to dump all of that onto my partner who is also the sole breadwinner at the moment because I haven’t been able to keep a job. My mental health hasn’t been the greatest because of it… and thus my physical health as well. That’s why I love finch. It’s one of the only things that I do for ME and MYSELF ONLY. It’s one of the only things that spark a little joy in my life that is just for me. Like my daughter or my partner- they make me so happy!! But this is the one thing I do as a gift to myself… it helps remind me why I’m sober and keeps me that way. It helps to keep my adhd in check, helps to ensure I keep up on hygiene… idk I’m just venting. I know to some people this may seem dramatic because it’s “just an app” but it’s so much more than that. Idk I am just so incredibly bummed about this. /:

TLDR: I was cooking dinner and starting falling asleep because it was late. Didn’t want to mess up my 78 day streak so I got on the app and accidentally sold my first and only pink plushie from getting the only two people in my life who actually accepted the invite, to sign up for finch. And now it’s gone and I am still so upset. It’s now 7:50am the best day so about 28 hours later :( I got tired and decided to go to bed and was basically dead to the world yesterday and I’m still bummed whenever I open the app.

pic of my birb w her birb plushie on Christmas and my 32 months sober counter