Shame/guilt around partaking?

Hi ents!

I’m sure this has been a topic of discussion but it’s been weighing heavily on my mind. What to do about rising feelngs of guilt and shame regarding cannabis use?

I take an edible almost daily, mainly to subdue the insomnia side effects of my daytime medication. I find it’s the only way I am able to get a good night’s sleep nowdays. I also partake to check in with myself without judgment (because it’s hard to do sober). But the thought about dependence has been crossing my mind more lately to the point where it doesn’t feel great to partake anymore.

While I’m lit it’s fine. I enjoy the feeling of serenity, calmness, and perspective that washes over when the edible hits. It’s the day after when I get hit with feelings of shame, even though I’m not necessarily doing anything wrong. I’m trying to view cannabis as a medication, just like my daytime one but I still can’t help how I feel.

I’m not looking for advice on t-breaks or anything like that, I’m well aware that I’m due for a big t-break soon. I am trying to moderate my usage as well by avoiding hitting up the dispo during the week and making my stash last for a while. The consequence is always not getting sleep, feeling shitty at work, and continuing the insomnia cycle. It gets exhausting, physically and mentally.

Thoughts?