cant enjoy vacations anymore ):

i’ve been diagnosed for about a year and a half and feel like i can never have fun or relax on vacation now ): going through TSA isn’t too bad but just the loss of routine is awful and i spend all my time worrying about my blood sugar and can’t have fun. i feel like i’m just waiting for some sort of emergency to happen the whole trip. it’s so hard not eating the same foods everyday or doing activities i don’t normally do.

i’m skiing right now which i used to love pre-diagnosis, but now i feel like i’m going to spend the whole day worrying instead of having fun :/ it sucks