Wife (25F) Cheated, But I (24M) Liked It?! Help! [Cheating][Cuckold]
Looking for Advice on My Situation
This is a real situation that happened about 10 months ago. I’m not looking for hate, just genuine advice.
I still remember the day I found out my wife was cheating. It was one of the most intense moments of my life. I’ve always been fascinated by the idea of the cuckold lifestyle, so when I discovered her infidelity, I felt both panic and excitement.
My wife and I had been in a long-distance relationship for months before we got married. During one of my visits, we were getting ready to go out with mutual friends. While she was in the other room, I checked her phone using Apple’s recently added feature that allows you to view deleted iMessages. Some may call it an invasion of privacy, but I had my reasons, before we were married, I had caught her messaging another guy, planning to visit him while lying to me about working late. She had apologized, promised it wouldn’t happen again, and I forgave her.
However, a year later, I found another suspicious message. A number was saved under a female friend’s name with emojis. Curiosity got the best of me, so I restored the chat. That’s when I saw it, she had been texting another guy, someone who used to visit her at work.
The texts were along the lines of this:
Him: “Hey, do you remember me?” Her: “Of course I do.” Him: “I can’t stop thinking about you!” Her: “I think about you a lot too.”
A few messages later, things escalated:
Him: “I honestly can’t forget your kisses that night. You did that on purpose so I wouldn’t be able to forget you.” Him: “When I see you, I’m going to fuck the shit out of you!”* Her: “You better, but the issue is I don’t work anymore and he’s always around. It’s going to be hard to see each other.”
We live in a small town, so seeing familiar faces daily isn’t unusual. My wife and I often walk to the gym together, nothing out of the ordinary. She usually wears standard gym attire: leggings and a regular shirt. I never thought much about it.
Then I saw another message from him:
Him: “I see you going to the gym almost every day, and those leggings make me so hard. I want to say something, but he’s always around you.” Her: “It’s not fair that you can only see me. I want to see you too, but if I look around too much, he’ll get suspicious. Why don’t you come to the gym and watch me train? I want to see you, even if it’s just for a few minutes.”
Later, she messaged him again:
Her: “I’ll try to sneak out for at least 20 minutes, but I don’t think you’ll be able to satisfy yourself in that little time.” Him: “With you, I’ll finish quickly.”
Then, he sent another message:
Him: “Just let me know if you want me to pick you up at the same place I dropped you off last time.” Her: “Send me a voice message so I can be 1000% sure it’s you.”
He sent the audio, but I don’t remember exactly what he said. That was the last of the messages.
I had finally read everything and decided to confront her immediately. She broke down crying, insisting nothing happened and that they never had sex. When I asked about the “kisses,” she claimed he once dropped her off after work and kissed her on the cheek, but that was it. She said she was scared of him, which didn’t make sense to me, why would she be scared of someone she was trying to meet up with alone for 20 minutes?
As we were arguing, I was still physically aroused. Seeing an opportunity, to possible move this to a cuck relationship, I moved her hand onto me so she could feel how hard I was. She instantly pulled away, panic in her voice, and asked:
Her: “Why are you hard?! Wait… do you WANT to see me fuck someone else? What the fuck?!”*
Seeing her reaction, I quickly backtracked, saying:
Me: “No, no, that’s not it. I was just trying to change the subject.”
I made something up to steer the conversation elsewhere. It took a while for our relationship to return to normal, but since then, I haven’t stopped thinking about those messages. I find myself watching cuckold porn, fantasizing about my wife with another man. She loves watching double penetration porn, and sometimes I ask if she would ever try something like that. Her usual response is either:
Her: “Baby, stop.” or Her: “We’ll see.”
My final questions/advice I need is:
Do you think she actually had sex with the guy she was texting?
How can I bring up my cuckold desires without scaring her or damaging our relationship?