“It’s Just Hair..”

My second round of TCHP starts this coming Monday and my hair loss began a few days ago.

Coming into the whirlwind of diagnosis, surgeries, and treatment I really didn't think the hair loss would hit me very hard. I am a very logical, take what comes sort of person. My doctors were very open and upfront from the very start that I was going to see significant hair loss. I made plans and felt confident in the, "it's just hair and it will grow back."

I've had PCOS for over a decade and my head of hair pre-treatment wasn't much of anything at all, so a long bob has been the best I can manage. I am not very feminine on the best of days and I don't normally get too in my feels at fancy events where other ladies have lovely up-do's that I could never achieve. My husband has been a strong supporter, offering to shave my hair if I wanted and going with me to purchase my first ever wigs--which are lovely and a significant improvement to what I started with.

I had four surgeries and TCHP within 60 days and none of those things were as devastating as seeing all the strands of hair in the comb. I feel silly to be in tears over something that in the scheme of things really isn't a big deal. I don't know if it's just a delayed reaction from "all the things" or if I'm just more vain than I knew.. but man I feel terrible.

Not looking for sympathy, just community and maybe some reassurance that someone else has felt this way and I'm not alone in being more devastated about the little things than the big things.