Not feeling queer enough, wanna explore

I'm 18F turning 19 this month and i feel like my time to explore is running out since i dont think I'll have time after i graduate. For context, I'm kinda intrested in a guy rn. Previously, I had a crush on a different guy and I haven't liked a girl romantically for a little over 2 yrs, and it only went as far as a situationship ouch. I generally have (unreciprocated) interest in people for months at a time so ig it's normal, but I'm starting to feel not queer enough again, which i haven't felt for quite some time.

Sometimes it feels like im faking it. It doesn't help that I'm so basic. I havent developed a style yet so u won't be able to tell unless i tell u. I'm also more into older women and hyperfems/softmascs, which is unfortunate cus most fem girls are straight, and soft mascs are rare asf where I'm from.

I'm pretty sure I'm slowly falling into compulsory heteronormativity. and it's cus I'm scared. Being in a conservative country where querness is kind of tolerated but still hatecrimed feels like shit. My family has expressed their disdain towards queer people. They're tolerant of other queer people, yes, but I don't think they will be with me if i come out. They'll accept me, sure, but will they really? Will I be able to introduce my girlfriend if i ever get one? Will I be able to show her off on social media without hiding my posts from my relatives?

Anyway, i digress. Idk where to start exploring. Is it a good idea to wear a bisexual outfit/makeup on june while we celebrate pride in uni (if there will be pride lol)? and if so, will making it lowkey still work?

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