Biwomen: How do you feel about being sexual with another woman? I am confused if I am straight

So I have been confused if I was bi, lesbian or straight. All the labels. I have never had romantic crushes on women. Only guys. I never really felt flustered around a woman. I blush around good looking men and get all shy and giggly. The reason why I thought so is that I have been turned on by womens bodies in media. And had some specific fantasies like tribbing.

So I thought I should go explore more.

I have been dating 6 women. All pretty, different types of women, some skinny, some curvy, some medium bodies. Different hair types. I never feel anything other than friendship? I decided to go all the way with 3 of the women.

I really really didnt like making out? It was too soft, too awkward and I was never turned on , I was rather repulsed? Anyway we took our clothes off, and I tried to touch their bodies, I felt very repulsed when they wanted me to touch their vaginas, I felt repelled by the wetness/texture, so fingering and oral was horrible .

Boobs in my mouth were like meh. It didn’t arouse me.

When they went down on me I started to think of a guy? And I just felt my body pull away every time they touched me idk. It made me uncomfortable. I don’t have issues with touching dicks or cum. I met the women over dating apps, I have tried going to lesbian bar and Queer events and I feel uncomfortable if women try to flirt with me idk.. I don’t know if any bi woman has experienced something similar?