Struggles of a heavy porn user

I used to look at a lot of porn. At work, at home, when I wasnt horny, when I was bored. It went into some weird territories, and I got to using vibrators and chastity and huge dildos. I had this elaborate routine where I would jack off for like an hour daily minimum.

Cue my surprise when I started having actual sex with a guy i liked. I couldnt get hard and when I decided to bottom it wasnt as fun to me because I was used to like 12 inch massive dildos. It took me a long time to figure out that my own habits were the problem. Years.

A couple years ago, I decided that I would lay off all porn. It was harder for me to do that then quit actual drugs. I think it's because it is so easy to access. I still let myself jerk off, but my libido fell off a cliff. I also failed a few times.

But, it was worth it. I'm sensitized to normal dicks now (weird to say), and I get this connection going and still enjoy sex even with all the awkwardness. Real people have some fat, pimples, theres weird moments, pauses, silliness that porn taught me weren't normal. I still struggle with porn use sometimes but I'm largely free and just enjoy my partner.

I'm not at a point where I can say porn use is bad for everyone, but I think its something everyone should self reflect on. Ask, "how does this affect me and do I want to continue?" If you like me find that it us interfering in your life, it is a legitimate thing