“baby, i’m sorry…”

my boyfriend and i have been together for 8 months now, and monthsary namin last 25th. we’ve been going through rough patches lately, at napapansin kong palagi kaming not in good terms o madalas na nagkakatampuhan. so during the weekends, we decided na umuwi ng bulacan sa family niya to celebrate our monthsary there; take note, magkaaway kami bago umalis, at nagaway nanaman kami pagdating doon.

i was so fed up, i broke up with him kinagabihan ng uwi namin. i told him na let’s just suck it up and act as civil as possible hanggang sa makabalik kami ng manila by monday, tapos pwede na niyang kunin lahat ng gamit at damit niya sa amin. i was scared, but i was sure. sa sobrang lalim ng misunderstanding and lack of communication namin that time, i was honestly willing to drop everything because i was just so exhausted of arguing.

let’s just say he did not take that lightly. he tried to talk me out of it, pero kilala niya ako to know that i meant it, at buo na ang desisyon ko noon. things took a quick turn, and he insisted on dropping me off sa terminal ng bus para umuwi na agad. since i wasn’t expecting less of an reaction naman, i agreed nalang. i wanted to go home na rin dahil hindi ko rin kayang magpretend with him and his family, and act like we’re okay.

during the trip papuntang bus terminal, sumisingaw yung galit niya. i did not know if it was towards me, the fact that we’re done for real, or the fact that everything escalated so quickly at hindi ako umangal sa gusto niya. nakarating na kami sa terminal, bumaba ako ng motor niya, and we both did not bother saying our goodbyes. parehas kaming galit at bulag sa pride namin to even look at each other for the last time, so hinayaan nalang namin na matapos ang lahat. sumakay na ko agad, and i was sure that once makaalis yung bus, i was done with him. i blocked him on everything na except for his phone number since kailangan pa nga naming magbalikan ng gamit.

matagal tagal akong maghihintay, dahil bakanteng bakante pa yung bus na nasakyan ko. but not even 10 minutes nang makaupo ako, nagulat ako nang may tumawag sa phone ko. it was him, so sinagot ko dahil akala ko may emergency, o may nakalimutan ako sakanila. “bakit?” na agad ang unang bungad ko sakaniya, para hindi niya maramdaman na i was secretly hoping he’d stop me from going.

“baba.”

“huh?”

“bumaba ka.”

i knew he was the type of person that wouldn’t beg for me to stay, or anyone for that matter, so i chose not to linger around, in short, pinigilan ko ang sarili kong maging marupok sakaniya. lalo na dahil choice ko namang makipaghiwalay in the first place. pero lintik, ambilis kong bumaba noon. wala na akong pake kung magmukha akong tanga at kainin lahat ng sinabi ko, sumunod na lang ako sakaniya.

sumenyas siya na sumakay raw ako sa motor, so i did. tahimik ang byahe namin. i wasn’t sure kung anong nangyayari exactly, but everything felt totally normal that time. maya’t maya pa, kinuha na niya ang kamay ko at ipinulupot sa bewang niya. during that time, i felt like we both knew na uuwi na kami ulit, so we did. it was something na hindi na namin kailangang sabihin sa isa’t isa, we just knew.

paguwi, he told me he was sorry. he told me na naintindihan niya lahat ng sinabi ko at nararamdaman ko, and he admitted na nagkamali siya. he confessed na hindi niya ako kayang hayaang makaalis kanina.

“nangako tayo na palagi nating aayusin.”

and boy did he change my mind; pero for the record, alam ko namang magbabago ang isip ko. syempre gusto ko lang yung may konting effort, hehe. nagsorry rin ako knowing that i had a fair share of mistakes.

matapos naming tawanan ang mga nangyari, we both leaned in for a kiss. iba pala talaga yung feeling ng halik pagkatapos ng isang malalang away no? parang physical reminder na, “ganito parin kita kamahal.”

ilang araw na kaming walang action nito, kaya siguro dahil sa intensity ng nangyari at nararamdaman namin, it became passionate real quick. hinalikan niya ako na parang uhaw na uhaw sakin, like he was trying to please me.

“pwede ba tayong mag-quickie?”

gising pa lahat ng tao sa bahay so of course, ang unang sagot ko ay no.

“baby, no. hindi pwede.”

but i didn’t think he even cared at this point. bumulong siya nang, “mabilis lang,” and made me turn and bend over the edge of the bed. mind you, i was still trying to protest, pero hindi debate na mas malakas siya sakin, and to be honest, i wanted him to be as rough as he can with me.

he made me bend over, and harshly dragged my shorts and underwear down. his thumb immediately caressed my pussy, at ramdam niya agad na basang basa na ko, so he pushed his thumb inside me. he knows that i’m a moaner, at hirap na hirap akong pigilan ang sarili ko palagi, but i had to choose between sucking it up or having his family hear how messed up i get under him, so of course i chose to stay quiet.

a few pumps after, he replaced his thumb with his cock na. and if there’s anything i can guarantee about our relationship, it’s that we may fight like crazy, but shit, we have sex like a motherfucker. dama ko ang bawat bayo at baon niya sakin, and i was struggling to keep my moans at this point. but over anything, ramdam ko ang pagmamahal niya sakin nung mga oras na yan. it was as if he knew how good it felt, at yun lang ang tanging pambawi niya sakin.

he traced his fingers along my nape and grabbed a chunk of my hair. yung pagkakahawak niya sa buhok ko, firm, but he pulled it ever so softly, just enough para magsakto yung bibig niya sa tenga ko. in the heat of him fucking the brains out of me, he whispered, “baby, i’m sorry…” at binaunan pa ko lalo.

sobrang sarap ng sensation, at alam kong sarap na sarap na rin siya sa akin nun. while i was trying my best to shut up, all he kept on saying was how beautiful i am, at kung gaano kaganda ang katawan ko. i whispered a few times na wag niyang ipuputok sa loob, but it felt so good not to, and it felt so good to stop him.

i loved how he praised me and yet continued to fuck me like a whore, just how i like it. like he was begging me to forgive him. all i managed to say was a few curse words na incoherent, and a sincere “i love you,” and we both came shortly after.

moral of the story, palagi niyo lang subukang ayusin with your partner, only if BOTH of you are willing to. one of the key sa isang matatag na relationship ay sandamakmak na forgiveness. kaya matutong magpakumbaba, at tumuwad after. eme.

EDIT:

nasa aj rin siya, so kung mabasa mo to at medyo familiar ang story, aq to baby hehe

tsaka tama na po bumubula na bibig ko dito kakabasa niyo sakin ng latin hahaha