Why do I get cheated on

What’s wrong with me man? How do I fail everyone so much that they can’t even tell me they’re not interested. I just wanna be the husband that my mom deserved, I want to be the parent that I deserved, I want to feel the peace that I deserved as a clueless kid just trying us best. And yet here I am, listening to the cars passing by as if they are some invite to peace. I wanna give up

(Edit) If you’re gonna tell me to have more sex or be an alpha male then go back to watching Andrew Tate and leave this post alone.

Everyone else, thank you so much for helping and making me feel understood.