I broke up with my girlfriend in October because I didn’t want to be gay

She was the perfect girl for me. The only problem is she is a girl. We are both Christian and we planned on waiting for marriage. We balanced each other out. I told her that I broke up with her because it was kinda long distance (about 45 minutes away). I just moved closer to her tho- not for the purpose of getting back together but just a coincidence. But really I just broke up with her because I felt guilty. Like I was living in a way God didn’t want me to. But now my ed has relapsed (we both struggle with it) and I know that God wouldn’t want that either. Thoughts? Advice?

(I posted this in r/Christianity as well)

EDIT: I have decided that I made the right decision in breaking up with her, and I am praying that God will send the right man my way if that is His will. Thank you everyone for your advice.