I think been hearing loml all wrong!

Am I the only one who just realized in the final line of loml Taylor could be saying the muse isn’t the loss of her life as in the person. She’s saying the wasted time with the muse was the loss of her life. Like time lost. Like “I’m pissed off you let give you all that youth for free” she lost her LIFE on a relationship that turned out to be fake. This completely changed the song for me interpreting this way