Has sex with a client unprotected

Out of my 5 years being in the game this is the first time I ever let a client fuck me without a condom. He’s a regular and I been seeing him for yearsss but this time I was going thru a lot personally I didn’t wanna feel anything I wanted to be numb I drank till I blacked out and let him fuck me like that. I feel sooo disgusted. I scheduled an appt with my doctor and I’m on birth control. I recently got out of an abusive relationship and it was weighing on me heavy. Now I think he expects raw everytime ummm FUCK NO it was my fault I was so drunk but I think he loved it. Should I be straight up or cut him off instantly? I’m such an anti trick provider if you get what I mean but I’ve been so depressed