I will never be a part of someone's life.

I will never be belong to anyone. No one will ever want to belong to me. Im heartbroken, surrounded by a bigger heart breaking reality. My life is falling apart. People who used to love me went so far away from me, leaving me alone and lonely. I don't worth the time and effort. My value isnt exist.

No one will never get inside my heart again. I try to repeat that in my head like a mantra, but what control do I have on that? I'm weak. So weak. I can't help it, falling in love is first and foremost about falling. And I can't get back on my feet. I repeat the same mistakes again and again, like a scratched vinyl. And my mind is being scratched at the same time. I wish to leave my body and its suffer and pain behind and just be an hovering soul with no physical evidence.

And now the tears are blurring the screen.