performing femininity vent

ok so i'm basically a nerdy boy inside of a hot girls body. lol. not trying to brag by any means--i am objectively a 9/10 in the stripper world (physically). BUT!!!! This doesn't equate to more money. it really is about your mouth piece,energy, and sales skills.

i can get guys to get a couple dances just off of being hot but to sell VIPs is so hard for me. I don't feel "feminine" inside lol. i watch these girls at my club who have this natural elegant sexy femininity and they KILL IT. the thing is, that's how their energy is naturally. like out of the club, so it's not a big performance for them inside the club to be that way.

i've been stuck comparing myself to them and being jealous that they can be feminine without effort which generally equals more sales (at my club and part of the country). i had to have a real sit down with myself because i know they aren't ND and don't have to jump through the same hoops so there's no point in even comparing.

I don't drink alcohol and haven't for over a year but when i used to, i was able to perform the femininity/bubbly/submissive role easier. I can hardly act and if i do i burnout SUPER quick. sigh