marriage as a full hijabi

From what I see in the world now, its usually girls without a hijab getting asked for marriage or just for wanting to get to know them or girls with a hijab but with full make-up on and tight clothing. May allah guide these women into wearing the full hijab (say ameen)

the funny thing is that the men want them to wear the full hijab in the end, so why go for women like that if you don’t want that? its hypocritical

I also stopped listening to music and many other things such as wearing make-up for the sake of Allah. its sad how music is part of every culture and how normalised it is, to the point where people look weirdly at me. i feel so alone and perhaps thats why i want to have a righteous spouse, but from what i see, its never gonna happen.

long story short, I stopped making dua for a spouse. perhaps ill find him in the afterlife. for now and for as long as I live, ill only focus on my relationship with Allah, the only one i can truly trust. its sad to think of me never having children but i truly lost all hope.

if you are young and in the same situation as me, stay strong. the afterlife is much better anyway