why are trans girls so epic ☆

trans guy here. wanted to ask a question. i am quite infatuated by trans girls. i want to meet one so we can do a clothing swap and teach her how to do good makeup i love transgirl music and kind of dress like a closeted trans girl i dom't know, is it the asparations towards femininity most trans girls have? what i'm asking is this: why do trans girls make me so happy when im a trans guy? i am sorry that i pose such an unanswerable quibble.

edit: im gay just so nobody feels uncomfortable