I want it to stop, but i think it can’t??

i’m a tgirl. and i’m kinda excited about it. i can finally wear everything i want to and be called by a name i like, and such.

i’m a minor 18 somewhat soon, and not moving out for about a year.

parents are supportive of me as their child, but not their daughter. it’s clear they want me to “think about it a long time” and “take a long time to decide wether i should take hormones” to be clear, that’s good, i should be very careful with my choices.

thing is, i don’t really have time. i’m almost completely through puberty. but i still have a small adams apple (still very dysphoric abt it), and I still have a shorter body and softer skin than a “man” would. i don’t think i’m done with puberty yet. i think there’s still time to stop it, because that’s what i want right now.

but i don’t think my parents will let me get hormones, and i don’t think i can get them for a year, or more.

i’m really scared that i’m going to actually complete puberty. i don’t want to. that’s not what i want to happen to me. “gender as body horror” and all that.

so i’m just asking if anyone has any advice, or knows anything i can do to attempt to stop any late stage effects of puberty. i don’t think there’s anything i can do, but unfortunately i am a little desperate.

thanks ladies. sorry this was so long.

p.s. just in case it wasn’t clear, i do want hormones. i have thought thoroughly about this. i don’t think i’ll regret it. “what if you regret this permanent change”: what if i regret not doing it. i could also regret letting myself turn into something i don’t want to be. i can regret not going on E. i’d rather be confidently wrong, than choose to do nothing when i knew i was right.