i’ve been into manifesting for years but this one thing is bugging me and i can’t figure it out.

so i’ve been manifesting since i was about 12 but it’s been on and off and i haven’t fully understood the science of it, i’ve just done it and manifested so many things. i know no one really understands fully and everyone has different opinions about it but here’s the one part I’m so irritated by and stuck on that’s keeping me from manifesting to my full potential.

of course i’m aware of the whole general concept of “your feeling/true beliefs will reflect into your reality, change your paradigm and self concept through tapping into high vibrations and happy emotions,ect”

my main confusion is about manifesting people. i hear lots of stuff about manifesting a “specific person” and then see tons of people trying to manifest their way into a relationship with an awful and abusive person and think it’s their minds fault that they’re being treated that way and they can “manifest” the person to be the way they want. is this true? i don’t think it is. i think when it comes to other human beings the topic of manifestation changes. can you truly manifest a person to treat you different, or if you try will that relationship fall apart and the universe will give you a better one? or, will the universe just give you what YOU believe you deserve?

i’m curious about this because when i was 15 i cut off my best friend, and i’ve never had a better friend since i had him. for 3 years I’ve regretted that decision and tried to manifest him back. it has NOT WORKED even one bit. and i try not to tell myself that but it’s been 3 years where i’ve manifested everything else, moving houses, getting accepted into school, thousands of dollars, my personality, ect. but i can’t seem to get him to reach out. i even reached out to him when i was desperate 3 years ago and got no response.

i’m starting to think when it comes to manifesting, you can get WHATEVER you want except for people. what do you think? maybe he’s just not right to be in my life? maybe i’m putting him on a pedestal and giving his existence in my mind too much power rather than sticking to my self concept? but it feels like i’ve tried everything and he just will not show up.

also, if manifestation is all about creating the feeling of already having something in your body and thoughts don’t really mean anything (unless they affect that feeling), how the hell do we manifest SPECIFIC things? how have i manifested acceptance into a specific school? a house? if all my vibration was when i was manifesting those things was “happy” how did the universe know to give those specific things to me?