I was used as an experiment.

A while ago I was in a relationship with “C”, we broke up over a year ago. When I met her she told me she was pansexual in passing and I never thought twice about it. We quickly found out we both fancied each other and began going on dates, things were really good. We never fought, we were different but still had things in common so we always had things to talk about.

We were together for around 8 months and the break up came very out of the blue. I got the dreaded “we need to talk” text so I went over so we could talk. She told me was confused with her sexuality, that I had done nothing wrong but she needs time to figure herself out. I was devastated but I understood, questioning your sexuality is a very confusing thing to go through, so I wanted her to have the space she needed.

It was an amicable break up, and we tried to remain friends but eventually the contact got less and less and I would see her and all of our friends on outings without me, it hurt but I tried to forget and go about my life. I hadn’t spoken to her in MONTHS when I was told through mutual friends that she had said she wanted to date me to “try it out”, she was using me as an experiment the whole time and I had no idea.

Not only that but her and her friends have been saying to people that I am a “fake lesbian” because I apparently flirted with one of their boyfriends (all we talked about was music) and apparently I also had a conversation with one of them about how I do actually like boys a little bit, this never happened. I had figured out I was a lesbian before I met any of them, I told them I was a lesbian and that should be enough. Who are you to not only USE ME as a pawn in your game but also then question MY sexuality?!

I guess overall I’m just upset because I didn’t think she was that kind of person. I’m worried this is going to affect me in any future relationships, I’m constantly going to be scared I’m being used. I just needed to rant about this somewhere and possibly get some unbiased opinions on the situation.