sexual abuse need options

ok, i am 23 M,i was groomed by a family friend [male] from the childhood. (maybe from1st-2nd). i use to literally avoid him as much as i can, bhai bad touchka pata tha. lekin dimag mai kabhi option hi nahi aaya ki mai kisi kobaata sakta hun. like mai itna confident hi nahi tha ki mai bolu ki badtouch hai. because it was very subtle and i was confused ki ye toh trusted banda hai bad touch toh hoga nahi meri hi galat famili hai

main big incident- my birth date- Jan 2000 this incident is after the jan of 2018 in mumbai my home-town, but in the 2018. so my age would be larger than 18. does this crime can be counted under pocso ?mom was out of town. he was assigned to deliver me food. i don't rememberthe starting. i only have some memories. i was on my bed, he made tohold his dick. i was literally scared and it was big red alert in mymind. i was stuck. literally obeyed his instructions i don't know why. iwas scared. i am a skinny kid. he can kill me with knife plus i am aloneand shit. there was no penetration thank god. he was on me. heejaculated on my stomach. i was like eww. at least you don't have to dothat. said don't say to anything about this. he is our secret and shitlater that night he again called and was indirectly asking to visit thehome once again. with dvd and shit. i was literally stucked on phonecall and cut off the phone.so after i took the admission in Bangalore for my Bachelor . i wasunable to a single shit in degree. i was low key-sad. at the end of mydegree i said fuck this shit. i am going to hospital after telling my friend about it he motivated me to go to hospital. i was still in denied of the abuse, i was like i am confused. he is a good person henever harmed me. it me that is at the fault { i still feel this tho xd }. actually these keywords i got to know about the initial appointment after literally reading WHO documents of child abuse. i was so guilty to even say these to the doctor and thought they wont believe me. i justwrote all the text and passed the phone to the doctor. he asked somequestions. and made a case file in hospital and told me that you have option topolice complaint. it is your wish you can charge a complaint againsthim. i told i am scared. i don't wanna do it now. they didn't argue muchas they know i was scared as shit and suggest talk therapy.i have Dysthymia and PTSD according to themand mild se moderate to major hilta raheta hai depressionright now i am taking my treatment from Bangalore only, as these doctorsmade me comfortable. i am still a scared chicken in the butcher shop.i have n reasons of seeking treatment here. 1 of the reason is to avoidthat human. i am literally scare of him. he lives next to my complex . idon't want to do a police case as i am in fear. he will come out fromthe jail after some year. what if he killed me with knife or harmed myfamily in any way. i don't want that. and sometimes due to sadness. i getangry on my self that i am not able to even brush in a day because ofweakness and no motivation despite of medications . then that anger goes to that person. it isbecause of him, but i don't have spine to file a complaint as i amscared from them and the police.directly cutting contact with him by whole family seems good way to get out from the boat withoutmaking any noise. i don't want to harm his family. he got a son who iselder than me and a wife.maybe i am just selfish for myself for seeing my own benefits and notreporting to police, not following my responsibility, therefore he willbe out there abusing others too.

can you share your advice?what are my options, can i file complaint in Bangalore but the crime happened in Mumbai. i think i am not in headspace too that can handle going to court and police stations.