🆘 How to save myself from myself?

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Spent north of 300k last month. On nothing important. Like sasa I'm broke, church mouse broke. That's like burning through 10k daily.

Context: I'm a 27 year old freelancer. I get most of my dough from gigs. I'm single and I'm planning on getting married. Bad idea right. How will I support my fam with my squandering habits? So, I'll shelve that plan to focus on getting financially literate and responsible.

I need some professional help. Is it my depression causing this or is it the recent loss of a loved one? I think this manic spending spree is just a symptom of a bigger problem/malady.

Plaese recommend sthg I can do to save myself from myself. An idea, some advice, a book, or even one of your contacts who offers such help.

Ta.