I just can not get past gear fear.

I have EOD ver and I almost think it's a curse. I start with all this stuff in inv. and I'm just dont want to lose.

I know it's not rational... I'll have an inv. packed with guns that I will never use, and I keep going out with a glock.

I know what you are thinking..... If going out with a Glock anyway, who cares if lose everything in stash. Exactly!!!

Maybe it just doesn't hurt as much losing to a 3 man as a solo with a glock.... and It's my way of protecting my ego.. I don't know!! But it's killing the game for me.