Disappointed

I had a very successful DJ and I was so proud of myself for doing it. My main issue was my kids, during the latter part of the evenings when they get extra testy, which is when I would normally have a drink. I was able to prove to myself that I can deal with their attitudes sober and I don't need to depend on alcohol for that.

Well, I was doing fine the first couple of days of February, but last night I blacked out from going too far. I'm so disappointed in myself. I worked so hard and learned so much and I feel like I just threw it all away last night.

I knew you guys would understand, so thanks for being a listening ear.