Anyone else been to a psych ward?

I've been spiraling and relapsed hard. Mentally I'm very unwell which brought on the relapse. I dont want to hurt anyone or myself, however I've been in this spot before and I have previous attempts on my life (which I haven't ever told anyone about until this spiral)

And with what I'm going through I feel it's only a matter of time until whatever little of me is left wants to make another and final attempt. Im completely broke and can't get anymore alcohol so I have a certain amount of time until I start to withdraw hard so I have to make a decision.

From what I've read, psych ward stays seem to do more harm than good and I've already been let down by the healthcare system more than once (US) so I'm very wary and just wondering if should just go to the ER (get treated like trash because I'm just another CA wasting their time) and get meds and just hope my brain feels better eventually or commit to having myself on a 72 hour hold

My fear is that a 72 hour hold will destroy me even further.

EDIT: Truly, thank you everyone that's said something here or privately. I want to say that first. I've determined (with what little brain I have left) to just go to the ER (get treated like shit because I abuse alcohol) and bite the bullet to suffer withdrawal with meds. Better than seizing out or going the other route (yk?)

I have a happy plan afterwards for 2025. Career change (previous job I held for 10 yrs I just left was a huge trigger) and hopefully work something out with debt collectors to keep me going. I'm certainly not 100%, but the support here today has clarified some things for me and I want to thank everyone. Seriously, hope and making definitive changes have been keeping me going.