A song that brings you random memories/ thoughts
Forrr mee: it isss JUPITAR MAZHA 🌧️🪐 I didn’t know about this song until someone special introduced it to me. The moment I heard it, a wave of sadness washed over me. We used to talk every day, and those conversations meant so much to me. But with exams approaching, I made the decision to cut ties with everyone, including him. I even deactivated all my social media. In my mind, I thought everything would go back to normal once the exams were over. But it didn’t. Things changed, and by the time I realized it, I had lost that connection.
He had actually asked if we could stay in touch in any way, but I remember turning him down. Looking back, I feel like a total jerk for doing that. Now, every time I hear that song, I think about him and wonder how things might have been different if I hadn’t just disappeared. I sometimes wonder if everything would have played out differently if I hadn’t taken that step away. He was my best friend’s best friend’s best friend, and I had a huge crush on him. I even confessed to him, but he believed it would fade away soon enough because he was dealing with a lot of self-doubt and low self-esteem back then.
It’s been 3 or 4 years, and I still carry those feelings with me. There were times I tried to reach out to him after that, but the conversations never went anywhere. They’d end in just a couple of texts, and then it felt like I was being ghosted and obv I reciprocated the same.
Sometimes, the picture feels a little clearer to me, but a part of me still holds on to those old feelings, almost like I’m in denial about the nothingness. 🫠
Appookiee, With luvv, sarssuu💗
Forrr mee: it isss JUPITAR MAZHA 🌧️🪐 I didn’t know about this song until someone special introduced it to me. The moment I heard it, a wave of sadness washed over me. We used to talk every day, and those conversations meant so much to me. But with exams approaching, I made the decision to cut ties with everyone, including him. I even deactivated all my social media. In my mind, I thought everything would go back to normal once the exams were over. But it didn’t. Things changed, and by the time I realized it, I had lost that connection.
He had actually asked if we could stay in touch in any way, but I remember turning him down. Looking back, I feel like a total jerk for doing that. Now, every time I hear that song, I think about him and wonder how things might have been different if I hadn’t just disappeared. I sometimes wonder if everything would have played out differently if I hadn’t taken that step away. He was my best friend’s best friend’s best friend, and I had a huge crush on him. I even confessed to him, but he believed it would fade away soon enough because he was dealing with a lot of self-doubt and low self-esteem back then.
It’s been 3 or 4 years, and I still carry those feelings with me. There were times I tried to reach out to him after that, but the conversations never went anywhere. They’d end in just a couple of texts, and then it felt like I was being ghosted and obv I reciprocated the same.
Sometimes, the picture feels a little clearer to me, but a part of me still holds on to those old feelings, almost like I’m in denial about the nothingness. 🫠
Appookiee, With luvv, sarssuu💗