Venting

So in November my mom will be 87. I’m 50 and my husband is 51. My mom has been living with us for a year now after a bad bout of pneumonia. I have 2 brothers and 3 sisters. None of them help me. My younger sister did take her for a week so my husband and I could go on vacation and she is emotionally supportive but says next year she doesn’t think she can take her bc of work. She lives 2 hrs away. Everyone else except for one other sister lives out of state. My sister that lives close by does not help at all. Her and her husband live their lives just how they would like. They don’t even call my mom to check in. She’s been on at least 3 vacations just this year. My mother is in pretty good health now but is set to live here. She is a demanding and nagging person. I have depression, anxiety and obsessive thinking. I just lost my therapist of 20 years to retirement so I have no therapy right now and don’t know how to start all over. I do not work so I’m home 24/7 and it drives me nuts. Sometimes I feel so alone. It’s only been a year and I don’t know how much longer I can take this yet I feel so guilty because the only way out is when she passes and I certainly don’t wish for that. Well I’ve gone on long enough. Thanks for reading if you made it through.

Edit to add: I also like to be alone and we have a small house. While I have separate areas I feel like she’s always in my space and frankly I get annoyed not having the whole house to myself.