Does occultism have chance to coincide with buddhism?

I ask because I fell into a path to Buddhism and then fell rather undisciplined and had a few moments in engaging with drugs that put me into a loop. It has messed up my self esteem and my views entirely on the whole thing. I fear I have converted into somewhat of an amorphous energy vampire, something I am aware we all are at times. Intrinsically to be human we need to adapt and absorb the energies of our environments. It's tricky when the body has stored trauma and the mind is able to project stories and narratives onto things in a way that tampers with reality.

I guess my question is is it possible for magick to fall into the middle way and does doing so tamper with the flow of the universe? like is there going to be repercussions and is there karmic debt that comes with it? I admit I depend on stuff like this reddit posts for the boosts of energy and I notice that I have sown the benefits of being a somewhat help seeking person who has sunken into a low brow in view. I also read that anything we do for our spiritual benefit is going to be a benefit. and I am tired. when I first discovered buddhism the world opened up and was so beautiful and positive.

there is a zen temple I have not returned to that I left in somewhat dramatics that I am nervous to return to for the human reason of I look like a mess that has zoom meetings and dokusan so I think it might be worth asking with a teacher.