i don’t know what to do with myself

it’s been three months since my breakup, but i still find myself spiralling. it’s strange, by the end of our relationship, we didn’t see each other much anyways, maybe twice a month, and i was fine on my own.

now, i find myself not wanting to do anything. i don’t want to see anyone or hang out with anyone (not that i have that many friends to begin with), but i don’t want to be alone. videos games kind of overwhelm me rn. i don’t want to drink or go out to a bar because sometimes it’s good and sometimes i end up crying. i also don’t want to go alone. i’m not like interested in any shows because i have no attention span these days. social media gets really old, scrolling through until i’m bored and switch apps. i know it’s the algorithms, but they also basically only show me posts about breakups or couple stuff. i work out but it only takes a couple hours of my day and i’ve already lost 20 pounds since my breakup.

i don’t know how to break out of this, i don’t know how to get back to being okay on my own.