i miss him

i miss his arms and his touch.

i miss cuddling him late and night and him holding me until i was okay. i miss sleeping next to him or even hearing his voice before bed on the phone. i want him so bad. the thought of anyone taking his place disgusts me. who could ever be him?

it’s been a month today and it hurts. everything sucks and everything is still him. technically the days are getting better, but everything is so much worse without him.

who do i get through this? how do i be the someone he wants? it was mutual so i know it was just the circumstances and the timing, all the other little things, but how do i go on without the man who knows everything about me? the one who still loves me and i still love so deeply?

everything sucks.