Debating finding out gender…

I am 11 weeks pregnant and so torn on finding out the gender. I do have a slight preference (very slight), which is just the opposite of my current child so we can experience both, but I actually can think of so many positives for either that I think I will be really happy either way! I guess my concern with finding out is being at all disappointed and feeling guilty the entire pregnancy - I really don’t want any sad feelings as this could be my last (history of severe preeclampsia so we have to see how this goes this time).

Has anyone waited for this reason? Or is it better to get it over with and deal with it before the delivery? Would love any perspective! Thank you ❤️