True Will

Kind of a crazy ask, so hear me out. is it possible to shape your true will? As in I really don't know much about the metaphysics of it and at the same time it seems I created this story for myself to play out by way of magick before I understood it fully. like I shaped stuff and energy and now I realize that's not really my place in things and my path for now. (it came from a place of fear). and so I didn't stick with it now I'm here yada yada.

and so my question is is it possible to make our will? is it something we decide and how? how do we know it's not our egos reaching for something and that's its genuine within the universal flow?