Rejected again; 21 colleges left

I'm a Sikh international student with a 1480 SAT, I lived in NC for 7 years, came back to India and lost my father to COVID. I'm a proud shotgunner, and part of the college application process is getting rejected, but gosh darn it I hate this feeling. I just got rejected from UNC Chapel hill, and I got rejected from Stanford REA a back in December, and it sucks and is really scary especially for someone like me who could very well get rejected to every college I applied to (None of the colleges I applied to have an acceptance rate of over 20%) Yes I tried to apply to a safety UNC at Charlotte but had to withdraw my application as I couldn't pay the 300$ international credit evaluation on top of the 75$ application fee. I swear I feel so scared; it was really burdensome not only writing all the essays but also educating my teachers on how to write letters of recommendations, as my school is pretty rural and none of teachers or counselor know anything about the process, all while trying to maintain my grades when my school is infamous in Delhi for being really strict with grading as they want students to "flourish" in the state(CBSE) board exams, which ofcourse means really tough papers and really strict checking internally throughout 9-12 grades with their being external board exams in 10th and 12th grades(I rank 3rd in my class with 69% in 11th and 5th in my class for 55% in midterms). I really hope I get in somewhere.