Its crazy what this illness makes me do.

So, im currently sitting in a lobby of a building, literally freezing and wet from the rain, im legit about to cry from how cold i am all cause im waiting for my dad to go to work so he doesnt make me eat dinner cause i never eat past 7 pm and its currently 8pm and so i can make up i ate something. Im sitting here for like twenty minutes and i need to wait for an hour more. I hate this stupid disorder so much.