CPA dream looks farther from here.

I just found out about how the Refresher courses work. I graduated 2017, failed three times. I took my refresher course for my 3rd take on 2018, so that's over 2 years and is now expired and not valid. Now I found out that wala nang online refresher courses. I am working from home full time in our province, malayo sa universities that offer refresher courses. I am the breadwinner, so I cannot afford to move to the city. Ngayon lang ako nagka courage to try again, alot resources and time for this dream. I misunderstood and thought I didn't have to take refresher course ulit kasi may one take pa ako, but I didn't consider the validity. Napanghinaan ako ng loob when I realize out na mukhang hindi na naman ako pwede mag try ulit this year.

Parang I feel like I missed my chance. I don't have anyone to talk to about this, but it's hard to give up on this dream kahit ang tagal na. Maybe I am partly to blame.

Any suggestions on how to move forward from here?