I've finally come to the conclusion that I am not trans

before anyone says anything this is NOT a grift and this is NOT repper cope. I used to have an account where I would post here occasionally (though not enough to where anyone would probably recognize me), that I have deleted since having this realization and I will likely delete this account too. I just wanted to make this final post to share my experience and feelings as someone who thought they were trans for so long after spending so much time here. After this, I will never post, comment, or browse here again.

I'm honestly a little bit sad that I'm not trans because it means that I truly am just a boring ass cis male. But it is what it is I guess and I'm at least glad to have finally reached a conclusion after so long. Its honestly embarrassing how much time I've spent and wasted in the last 3 years questioning and thinking that I was trans. I was just on this sub when I suddenly realized like, what the fuck am I doing? I realized just how pathetic it was that I was obsessing over being trans and constantly posting embarrassing shit about myself here to receive validation and attention from others.

Looking back, it honestly seems so silly that I ever thought I was trans and wanted to be a woman. In reality it should have been so obvious that I'm not. I mean, I genuinely just don't have dysphoria and I simply just don't hate my body. And that I have an entirely male sexuality and am attracted to woman the same way as any any straight guy is.

I think the reason that I believed that I was trans for so long was my other problems in my life. I think my desire to transition and be a woman was a sort of manifestation of my boredom and unhappiness with my life. That I latched onto this idea of transitioning to become a woman as way to make my life more fulfilling. I still need to work through these problems, but I now realize that I need to look elsewhere.

anyway I guess this is it for me. I really like this community and think all of you are very cool people. and thanks to anyone who read all this, I just wanted to get all my feelings out there this last time